O LORD, thou hast deceived me, and I was deceived; thou art stronger than I, and hast prevailed: I am in derision daily, every one mocketh me.

For since I spake, I cried out, I cried violence and spoil; because the word of the LORD was made a reproach unto me, and a derision, daily.

Then I said, I will not make mention of him, nor speak any more in his name. But his word was in mine heart as a burning fire shut up in my bones, and I was weary with forbearing, and I could not stay.

For I heard the defaming of many, fear on every side. Report, say they, and we will report it. All my familiars watched for my halting, saying, Peradventure he will be enticed, and we shall prevail against him, and we shall take our revenge on him.

But the LORD is with me as a mighty terrible one: therefore my persecutors shall stumble, and they shall not prevail: they shall be greatly ashamed; for they shall not prosper: their everlasting confusion shall never be forgotten.

But, O LORD of hosts, that triest the righteous, and seest the reins and the heart, let me see thy vengeance on them: for unto thee have I opened my cause.

So the other morning, I had just finished my two and a half hour study of biology (everyone else is still snoring their cute little selves away in sleep) and I go back up to my room grab my Bible from off of the dresser and kind of throw myself on the bed in front of it. I didn’t know where to read, so I just opened it and flipped a few pages scanning them briefly, when suddenly something caught my eye. I began reading…and then just started laughing. I was like “Wait, I read that wrong. Re-read.” I hadn’t! It actually said that! “O LORD, thou hast deceived me, and I was deceived” As I continued reading, however, my laughter ceased and that tingling feeling came over me. You know like the tingles that go up your back when you read something really incredible?! At this one too, I had to stop and read over, only this one I did multiple times. It said, “I will not make mention of him, nor speak any more in his name. But his word was in mine heart as a burning fire shut up in my bones,” This is one issue that I’ve been confronting a lot lately – the conformity of the Christian. I don’t care whether you’re a strict Armeniast that follows a mile long list of rules or whether a worldly Christian that figures they can do anything they want “in the freedom of Christ”, it’s all the same. When the times come when you just want to drop God and everything to do with Christianity, it lasts no longer than a moment, before He’s like a fire inside of you that burns with such a fervent heat you can’t come near enough to quench it! That is Christianity folks! These people who live like celebrities and call themselves Christians, it’s just not real. (May I add even the people who can’t, but wish they could!) You are not your own as a Christian, and conformity to Christ reveals the fact. Yes, as a Christian you have the desire to live a life that glorifies God, but when those hard times come, (and they do!) you can’t just backslide. God doesn’t let you! He will conform you!!!

Check your Christianity folks. Where are you?